WHERE'S MINE?

If yiu are addicted to alcohol, herion, crack..............you get an inpatient program lovingly payed for by your insurance where you are sedated for several days and kept locked up.

Quit smoking? (Which is supposed to be more addictive than Herion) good luck, tough out those cravings. Rah, rah, crap.

I want my 3 days in lock down with tons of Ativan pumping through me.

24 plus hours in. I feel like some strange combo of Michael Myers/Jack Nicholson and Sylvia Plathe. I wonder what my kids would look like duct taped to the wall. And the dogs. How many shots of tequila will it take to knock me out? Why isn't hubby home from work yet? (Probably intentional after speaking to me a couple of times today.)

Who stole my willpower? Cause I really need it back. NOW!

Wonder if I will get kicked out of homeschool group tomorrow..............................

Birthday'd to death

Sunday was baby B's 5th birthday. Not so much a baby anymore, I guess. However, I am completely celebrated out!

We had another party to attend Saturday afternoon, which was a blast for the kids. Then we headed to the Cheese Man's for B's desired birthday activity. Sunday was her actual birthday, so she thought she was a princess for the day.

Today we got to go to Target so she could spend her gift card from her grandparents. Unfortunately, she got a bit confused between a gift card with a limit and a Credit Card, Platinum probably. Much time, headache and choices later, we finally escaped the store. With, of course, a High School Musical shirt..............................OY!

So goes the start of the season!

Lunchable................bane or boon?

The familiar cry of "please, please, please, please, please may we have Lunchables today?" Well, from the girls at least. J wanted a grapefruit?????

Of course B did not actually eat any of hers. So we spent the afternoon with her complaining of hunger and me ignoring her pleas. At least after about the 50th explanation of how she will wait for dinner. She begs, she pouts, she cries....................she reminds me it's her birthday on Sunday. Ah, the reasoning of children..........................and their ability to infuriate me!

Let's not even talk about the not smoking thing............trying to think of sunnier thoughts!

Rainy days and Mondays..................

Okay, so it's Thursday, big deal.

Waiting for hubby to get home so I can go meet at least one friend for Mom's Night Out. I thought more people were coming, but no one seems to have hit the database... The hightlight of my month. Although, since I have not made it in several months, its just a big highlight.

Have not had a smoke in over 24 hours. I think I am going to have a psychotic break. Maybe a couple of margs will sedate me enough not to snap. Or they will just screw up my judgement and I will buy a pack. I am hoping for the first response.

Lovely day to quit. Windy, grey, rainy and cold. I sure miss looking out my window and seeing my garden.

Figuring my way around

Okay, I had to move over to Blogger. Hopefully this site is idiot proof enough for me, as the prior one was not.

I guess you should label this: currently under construction.........................

boring posts fron *other* site

Sunday, October 21, 2007
Rational thought of the month club
Okay, for all of you who either have quit smoking, or plan to at some point, or are just reading this because you are bored:
When you make your "plan" to quit, carefully check your calendar first! If your official QUIT date falls about when your period will start STOP NOW and rethink this. I forgot this important step. "I quit" does not go well with, "oh crud, where are those tampons"?
Guess which mood wins?
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Friday, October 19, 2007
Willpower anyone?
If anyone has any extra, send it on my way! Day 2 of *The Quitting*. 3 1/2 cigs later, better than a bit over a pack a day, but still not the 0 cigs I am shooting for.
I have a sore on the side of my tongue. Now, smoking sucks the vitamin C from you. So why am I getting scurvy now? I do know I would like to kill anytone within reach. Poor kids. Poor dogs. Ha ha hubby on the way home!
Brain fog.

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Thursday, October 18, 2007
"Avoiding" habits
Apparently when one quits smoking, they should avoid those regular habits that usualy lead to having a cigarette. So, I am trying to figure out how NOT to get out of bed in the morning, NOT to eat a meal and NOT to interact with my kids.
Anyone have a solution? Cause I sure cannot figure this one out. Although I have only had 3 1/2 today. So far. And they did taste like doo-doo.

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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
My life
Apparently my life is so dull that I have not made an entry for a week. Amazing, I was too busy to notice how dull things are around here!
J's wart will soon have its own zip, as he is determined that the Doc is absolutely not removing it. We tried Monday. As soon as he saw the needle he kicked the Dr. Nice doc, willing to try again. This morning he actually got 3/4 of the novacain in..............then J freaked. He is a smart kid, yet refused to believe that the hard part was over. Home again, wart intact. Now we have to spend a huge amount of money for him to be sedated for this very simple procedure. He was freaked enough that he doesn't care that he will miss the first of his gymnastic meets. For this kid, that is freaked.
I thought I had an eye infection. Throw out the contacts, mascara and eye liner and rush to the eye Dr. Somehow I scratched the inside of my upper eyelid. How? No clue. No infection either.
I have a friend who quit smoking (YAY). Now she seems to be painting/staining her home in colors that all have to do with food. Chocolate stain? Really.
I *plan* to quit soon. I will be at her house eating her projects






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Wednesday, October 10, 2007
We seem to have misplaced an entire season??
Here in our lovely state, we seem to have *lost* Fall somewhere. It was almost 90 on Monday and a lovely, brisk, 50 something today. I was so looking forward to Homeschool Group at the park. We were colded out. Way too many kids who have not yet settled into the sedentary Winter, franctically running, in park mode, through the small area a local church lets us use when park day is out.
My yard needs mowed, but first I have to find my winter coat. And my sinuses. My head feels like they just gave up and went south.
There is a potential FROST warning in a couple of days. So much for watching the leaves turn. Another year of just watching the poor dead things slough to the ground.